See, this is why I should never post blogs in 2 parts. Because, instead of just posting part 2 the day after part 1, as promised, it's now several days later. And as a result, I don't feel as intensely about the issue I started sharing about it part 1. This is why I used to always do any school papers all at one time. Not in stupid outlines, rough drafts, and final drafts. I lose motivation and passion. I don't like to talk about or share personal things unless I'm feeling passionate about them. (This might be a bit of a problem on outreach when we're expected to share on a moments notice...joy.)
Anywho, all in all, what my conclusion to "part 2" was going to be, is that God doesn't stop existing JUST because I stop believing. He doesn't change or become corrupted just because someone has a false view of Him. Most of us are always going to have questions and doubts about God and what He's "letting" happen in our world. But it's up to us to CHOOSE to believe in His justness (I'm really not sure if that's a word or not. Hopefully you get what I mean.) and absolute love for us. People tend to just sit around going "touch me Jesus! Touch me!" Well, in the words of last weeks speaker (who was very, very, SUPERBLY loud.) "Why don't you get up and touch Him yourself???" Sound harsh? It is. Well, when said like that. But really, it's amazing because it means God is always there, asking "what do you want?" (And let's be mature people. I'm not talking in terms of ponies and barbies.) We just have to make the choice to acknowledge Him and that He is exactly who He says He IS.
Now, those words that I just typed, might sound like I'm pointing them at you. And, in a way, I guess I am, since I wrote them here and not in a personal journal. And if they help you at all, then woot woot! 10 points for blogging. However, the main point of me writing them was to share with you where I am at in my life with God. I still have doubts about God. It's not like they just magically disappeared because I heard all that last week. They didn't even go away after a couple of days of me "consciously" choosing to believe in God. It's an on-going process. Some days it's easier, other days...well, ya know. But all in all, I am so thankful for the fact that there is a God who not only loves my flippin guts, but is unchanging and just in all His ways. Meaning-He's all-powerful AND all-loving. Take that and rewind it back. Yes, I did just say that. And as tempted as I am to erase it and pretend I never wrote such a phrase...I'll leave it there, in hopes (once again), that no one reads this.
And one last little note, I find everything I just said rather humorous in the fact that if anyone reading this does not believe in God- you probably think there's a lot of fault with everything I just said. And there very well could be. Often times I even think there is. BUT, if God is truly TRULY true...then just because you don't agree with what I just said, doesn't change God one bit. Think about it-if He's real and unchanging, then He doesn't stop existing just because you don't believe in Him. I say that, not to "push" it down people's throats (because I hate when Christians do that), but merely because I think the whole theory in itself is rather amusing. Even more so if it's true. Which, I believe it is. But that doesn't really matter now does it?
So, there you have it. My thoughts for...the entire last 2 months. In two blogs. And, hopefully a bit more real without the little, cheesy Christianese quips here and there. (Though, they may occasionally pop up due to lack of other phrases available to describe what I want to say. But, worry not. It will be followed by a sincere apology.)
On a happy note though- on Sunday me and 8 others from the group took a day trip to Rotorua, other wise known as Roto-vegas. It's one of the biggest tourist towns in New Zealand, so obviously, we went. While there we went zorbing (sticking yourself in a giant, human-sized hamster ball getting rolled down a hill, anyone?), relaxed in natural (free) hot springs in the middle of the jungle, and went sight-seeing at a geo-thermal park that seemed like something out of Jurassic Park. If a velociraptor had popped out of the bushes, I wouldn't have been surprised. Scared crapless, but not surprised.
Now, those words that I just typed, might sound like I'm pointing them at you. And, in a way, I guess I am, since I wrote them here and not in a personal journal. And if they help you at all, then woot woot! 10 points for blogging. However, the main point of me writing them was to share with you where I am at in my life with God. I still have doubts about God. It's not like they just magically disappeared because I heard all that last week. They didn't even go away after a couple of days of me "consciously" choosing to believe in God. It's an on-going process. Some days it's easier, other days...well, ya know. But all in all, I am so thankful for the fact that there is a God who not only loves my flippin guts, but is unchanging and just in all His ways. Meaning-He's all-powerful AND all-loving. Take that and rewind it back. Yes, I did just say that. And as tempted as I am to erase it and pretend I never wrote such a phrase...I'll leave it there, in hopes (once again), that no one reads this.
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